Walking Contradictions


I’m sitting here in the shop today, freezing and wishing I had put on more layers this morning before I left home. I’m thankful that if it becomes absolutely not tolerable, I control the thermostat! That is a serious bonus of owning your own small business. The downside to that, of course, is that I also pay the bill. 

I’m a walking contradiction, so there are many upsides and downsides to owning your own business.

  1. Me being an introvert, quiet days are nice and I don’t have to make small talk with anyone. But. It gets lonely and I need people to come in so I can make money and continue growing this little labor of love. 
  2. I’m in control and I get to call the shots. I love that. I love the fact that if I like something, I can do it and I don’t have to ask for permission. I also don’t have anyone else to blame if it’s a bad decision. And sometimes I’m slightly impulsive, so I have to make a conscious effort to reel that in on a daily basis.
  3. It’s nice to have flexibility when you need it. If I’m going to be late because I have a doctor appointment, it’s not a big deal. Along with that, I’m a one woman show. If I need to open late or leave for some reason, I either have to make arrangements for someone to come in or just close completely and I really don’t like doing that. 
  4. There is a lot to learn. I need to be an expert in many different disciplines. The good – I think it’s really important to be a life long learner. The bad- it’s overwhelming to learn so much in a short period of time. 
  5. Every day is different. I really don’t know what to expect when I walk in the door of the shop each morning. It could be a busy day and I don’t get any admin stuff done or it could be super slow and I get bored. 

The last year has handed me many life lessons and I would absolutely do it all over again. I’m very excited to see what the next year throws at me. Whatever it is, I’ve become quite flexible and take it as it comes and often figure things out on the fly. It’s been fun! And scary. And weird. And crazy.

My favorite part of this whole project has been the people I have met. So many people that believe in the shop and my vision. I love it when I have visitors that come in just to see me and have a cup of coffee. It makes me feel like I’ve done something important. I’ve created a space where people like and want to be. 

I didn’t talk about anything book related this week, thanks for humoring me on that. These are just some thoughts I’ve had on my mind this week and I thought they worthy of a blog post. The little things that happen during the day often lead to the big things that happen in our lives. That’s exactly what this bookshop is, a series of little things that I didn’t necessarily realize were the big things. I’m trying to be very intentional this year in recognizing these moments and accepting them. So, my friend, watch out for those little things and watch in wonder when they become the defining moments of your life.